I'm so far behind that I've got to catch up

Years ago, someone wore a T-shirt that said something like, "I have a certain number of things to do in my life. Right now I'm so far behind, I'll never die." I love aspects of that sentiment. However, I HAVE GOT TO CATCH UP. I can't stand feeling disorganized and overwhelmed. It it is stressful to be this far behind. I really want to get better at organizing and prioritizing the essential things in my life. Aspects of my life have gotten out of control lately, and I have to get more organized. Part of my sloth is due to adult ADD, some is due to fatigue and some of it is due to misdirected priorities.

Right now I feel so behind with things for my family. For example, the Christmas gifts I have for my sister and her family in Indiana are STILL SITTING on my bedroom floor. They have been sitting on the floor since December. The details of how this came to be are a long story. The short version is that I am a terrible sister and aunt, I know. Often I've sent things late, but never, ever this late.

I am behind with things for friends. A family in my ward helped me with some things for one of my callings back in June. And terrible me still hasn't properly thanked them.

Anyway, a few days ago I typed out my current TO DO list. It is 4 pages long, and that doesn't even include everything I need to or want to do.


I feel behind at work. I am so tired tonight or rather this am. Because I have excess numbers of PDO's (paid days off), I will be off work until March 5th. Amazing, no work til March 5th.
I am excited to tackly my TO DO list over the next week and a half.

Still, it is hard to prepare to be off. I skipped tonight's institute due to the onset of a mild cold and feeling so worn out. Plus, tonight after I clocked out, I stayed nearly 2 hours to get caught up. We have to prepare notes for those who will cover for us. And then certain things that I would ordinarily procrastinate, I have to do. I am perpetually behind with some of my documentation. It is a struggle, an area of weakness. I am trying to be better. It gets frustrating, I get caught up and relish that feeling. Then I get behind again. Anyway, I will go in early tomorrow to finish up a little bit and then I am done worrying about it until March 5th!!!

I am behind in some aspects of my church callings as well. So that stresses me out.

There is so much to do in life and even when I feel I make a dent, something else jumps in to take its place.

I truly hope that by March 5th, my list will be a lot shorter. I am spending too much time thinking about what I need to do and not enough time doing things I need to do so that can cross them off my list.

Well that's all. I am tired and am getting a cold. My hands are dry and cracked and hurt a little from so much handwashing at work w/all my extra sneezing. Plus I have a small cut on the palm of my hand from when I slipped on the ice, this hurts as well. No big deal.

Anyway, for now, first on the TO DO list: go feed my cat, take a shower and then eat some of the Tagalong Icecream I bought tonight. I did my best today, I'm a little better off than I was at the start of the day. And I deserve it.